I don’t really focus on the before of the loss that I’ve had – I was so focused on the loss… The reality of my parents being gone was almost impossible to even focus on, I kept rationalizing that they were somehow still here … yet I know that was the most irrational thought to Read more
I am not ok, in 2010 my dad died very suddenly – from one day to the next he was gone and although my mom was physically still there with me – she died with him. I went on to find out I was expecting a baby, I was going to be a mom. As Read more
I admit, I was waiting for someone – anyone to come to save me, to stop the pain, the sadness and most of all to stop the reality that both my parents and Chloe had passed away. When Chloe was born, I knew in my heart that she was very sick and I began to Read more
Resiliency is one of my favorite words. Each day as I begin my journaling – I usually write down this word, it brings me back to the power of me. As I navigate through the loss of Chloe, many days I am still stunted by her not being here with me and her father. It Read more
Here’s the thing about grief, we believe that it’s our destination; what we are left with, but through my experience and study of grief- it’s a part of my journey, yes! But it’ll never absolutely never be my destination. It will never be what my life is. It’s a tool, it’s a resource and grief Read more
So true confession time … lately I have really wanted to give up- to quit, I just don’t feel as if I am effective in being a “entrepreneur”! The tech stuff is overwhelming and I have been in tears way more than I want to be. Well here is the truth I’ve come to… I Read more
I must admit, it’s easy to love when there’s agreeing & understanding. It’s easy to love when I am treated kindly & fairly but, in times of being treated badly, being treated unjust, or being judged for who you are, what you do? How you choose to process your journey, your pain & your life, Read more
I had a tough start to 2017 & I couldn’t seem to find a way to pull it together … then I had a good cry. I grieved a relationship that I thought would be a lifetime, instead it was a season and an amazing love story. But the realization is that the relationship has Read more
I spent many years searching for love & happiness: for a long time, I thought it was a man. I thought drugs/alcohol was the answer… I tried being a workaholic. I earned college degrees and titles. I overate. I ran marathons. Yet everywhere I looked it wasn’t there and when I couldn’t find it … Read more
Recently I had a really bad day! My definition of a bad day was that it just felt wrong and everything and everyone bothered me!! Sigh..in fact that bad day was spent feeling sad, anxious and stressed.. BUT It’s ok to have a bad day because there’s an appreciation of the greatness of my life. Read more
