You have no idea how good that feels to say.. you have no idea what that name does to my heart every time I hear it. I want so badly for my daughter to be alive and I don’t even know how to properly convey that into words. I want so badly for every Read more
Often we believe that it’s some grand process when you show up for grief. That you decide today that you will be able to somehow grieve and then that’s it, it’s over. No longer will you have to continue grieving and the challenges of facing that pain. That uncertainty. Instead, we must learn that the Read more
We tend to connect grief and death as one but, honestly, grief is connected to loss – the actual part of losing what isn’t replaceable. Loss is unimaginable and sometimes we can’t move through it- or we tend to believe that we “can get over it”. Here’s what the grief society is… It is when you Read more
I struggle to write this blog post- there is too much to say, yet nothing comes out! I struggle to find my words to properly write this post- but I am going to try my best. For you that are familiar with my blog posts and what and who “After Chloe” is and does, this Read more
As I thought of the title of this blog post, I struggled with what to call this awkward place of knowing life as you’ve known it, is over – yet you may not recognize what is or how to even adapt to this. Why is my grief so uncomfortable? Because grief is hard. Loss and Read more
When I began my grief journey I didn’t really even understand what self-care was, much less to practice self-compassion in order to commit to self-care … I quickly realized that I had no idea how to care for myself while having fallen apart. I also realized that I was my own worst enemy. I treated Read more
Oh my – well obviously the name of my “brand” is After Chloe and well for you that may be wondering – who is Chloe? She’s my child. She was born on December 29, 2010, and she died on February 22, 2011. There are more nevers than memories…We never danced together – yet while she Read more
My mom was a picture taker and a memory maker. She made everything she did an experience. I state this with all the love in my heart, I have amazing memories of my mom and my dad. But personally, I wasn’t much of a memory maker. I was never present and I didn’t document a Read more
I struggle so many days to get up out of bed or to be present in my day. Not everyone I encounter has any clue that my daughter has passed away. It is year 7, of Chloe not being here. She would be attending first grade and I imagine she would be talking a mile Read more
Lovely one, I’m going to assume if you are reading this post, it is because you are facing loss… and for this I am sorry. The finality of Loss can seem and is actually in fact impossible. Allow me to say I’m so very sorry for your loss, I cannot imagine what you are facing. Read more
